Revelation.

Today was home group again at Tamara's house, and it was so great. Revelation day. They were praying for me about my back and to be able to find a job, and in the meantime to know and love and rely on God for my job. But then Karen mentioned something. She said she had the sense that God was trying to tell me how special I am to Him, and that He adores me so much. Tamara also had a vision of a window with light shining through it, and a purplish-pinkish haze. If it's from God, I'm sure He will reveal it in good time.

Then, Ivan and I were talking and he mentioned how they had to fill Stanley in on the night that Karen and Geoffrey prayed for me, and Geoffrey remembered that I had this sense that I was worthless.

And then it clicked.

I get it now. I get why God keeps trying to tell me how much He loves and adores me and how special I am to Him. It's because for so long I've thought I was worthless, and He's trying to really let me know that that's not true at all. And it's not one or two incidents, it's every time someone tells me something from God, it always has this element of how special I am, and how much He adores me and loves me. And there was a click in my heart.

So that's my revelation of the day. I understand it now, God, and I am so grateful that you've told me this over and over and over again without tiring or losing your message, until I've finally gotten it. It's just so awesome.